I sit in the comfort of my home, where things are peaceful and harmonious. Not all of of us have that luxury. Some people don’t have homes to live in or homes that are peaceful or harmonious. Some would say I have privilege because of these things. Before I get into all of that, let me give you a little back story.
In April of 2015, a young black man Freddie Gray was killed while in police custody. He was an unarmed black man with a long list of priors. Why is that important? Its not, but the average white person would say different. Anyway, because of his murder, Baltimore took matters into their own hands and protested, rioted, and looted-for 3 days. It was probably one of the scariest things I have ever seen in my life. People were outraged as they watched Baltimore stores and businesses get burned down and looted. I was one who was outraged by this. I wanted to understand how burning down the community you live in was going to help anything. In fact, one of my very good friends (she is black) at the time called me out and told me that I was racist, but that it was “thinly veiled”. We are no longer friends and I have thought about her statement ever since. Please follow me if you are a person of color because this is how my thoughts went. First, I needed validation that I wasn’t racist. I mean, how could I be? I have a very diverse mix of friends, I was feeding the predominantly black homeless crowd at a church in the city once a month, I never thought I was better than any person that wasn’t white. I sought validation from other black friends who all reassured me that I wasn’t racist. Shew, I was saved from myself. But since then, I have grown. I have taken my friend’s words and tried to change my perspective. Her whole point was that someone made a remark about welfare and tied it to my riot post and the black people that were rioting and I said nothing. I’ve learned that silence=acceptance. So, for that, I thank her. I have often thought about her statement and still struggle with it. what if I am racist? I still don’t believe that I am, but maybe that is my privilege speaking. Since then, I have become an educator and one of the biggest things that I hear in school is about demographics, specifically about how our black students generally under perform based on testing data and analytics. I have to choose my words carefully. I get so frustrated because the word privilege is thrown around so loosely like the term bullying. But in 2020, racist, privilege, bullying have new meanings. If you are white and you are still reading this, thank you. If you are a person of color and you are still reading this, thank you double.
So, back to my present. Since becoming an educator, I have to find ways to identify with all of my students and if I don’t know what their life is like or understand how their skin color can affect how they are treated, I will fail them. While some may say So, every child has the same opportunity as the next, it is simply not true. I was never one to believe that until I took it upon myself to try and understand other people. I read some very good books on the subject. While every book does not personally speak to me, parts of every book do. I started years ago with “The Other Wes Moore” by Wes Moore. At the time, he was a new board member for the company I worked for and I was interested in reading it. It was an amazing story of how two black men grew up, same name, different lives. If you haven’t read it, I recommend you do so. Both men had the same opportunity to attend school and get an education. Only one had a parent that could save her child. Then last year I read the book “Born a Crime” by Trevor Noah. OMG what an eye opening book. It is the story of Trevor Noah being born mixed in a time where it was socially unaccepted in white or black South Africa. What that book taught me was that different cultures have different expectations. While my culture expects you to get an education and get a good job, not every culture is the same. This was my first look at my personal racism an privilege. this year, I have read “For White Folks Who Teach in the Hood” by Christopher Emdin. Wow, what a powerful book about the importance of learning other cultures!! I have also finished up “Waking up White” by Debby Irving. I only tell you this so you can understand that I am trying to make myself a better person by learning how to be a better, more open-minded teacher and individual.
So, what is racism today? Well, it is the same as it always was, only encompasses more than you just thinking you are better than someone else because of their skin color. It is making statements like “The looting starts, the shooting starts” or “political correctness sucks” (actual comment on social media). Political correctness? Come on people, wake up! Privilege…that is a tough one, because until recently, privilege meant that I have an opportunity that you don’t have. I never thought of skin color being a privilege because I personally have never gotten any favors done because I am white. I haven’t been given anything because I am white. I worked hard over the years and accumulated a ton of debt to get to the career I have. My student loan payments are half of my monthly salary. Where is the privilege in that? I know many of my white friends that are still reading this are probably shaking their head in agreement with me. Well, this is the privilege. I had the same opportunity as anyone else to heap on the debt. Or did I? Well, my first 3 years of college were paid for by my parents. So, that saved me a lot of money to even think about going back. Not every person has the opportunity to attend 3 years of college for no charge. Not every person has 2 parents that made sound financial decisions so their child could go to school. Not every person has the stability at home or transportation to school or even a computer to complete online classes. There are many things that factor into privilege. My white privilege comes from going into a business and not being followed around, going into a store and being helped before someone else because you are white, getting pulled over for a minor traffic violation and getting let go with a warning, or standing in front of a person of color in the middle of a protest and shouting “white people, we need to protect the people of color, stand behind us”. (This is an actual quote from my friend as he and his wife protested in Toledo, Ohio yesterday). White people were not afraid to act as a barrier between themselves and people of color, because they knew the likelihood of them being shot or injured was far less than had the man they were trying to protect continued to stand in front. White people-I hear you talking about how burning things down, destroying property, etc. is not what should be happening right now. But, when people protest, what are you thinking? Oh look at how peaceful these people are being, not burning things down, blah, blah, blah. Guess what? people are being seriously injured during these protests too. Yesterday, in Toledo, Ohio, friends were recording everything live. People were walking the street, marching in solidarity. Sure, maybe traffic was blocked. It was a minor inconvenience, but did it warrant rubber bullets and tear gas? A man lost his career for taking a knee during our national anthem. So, what would you like people that are frustrated from years of thinly veiled racism and under-privilege to do? Sit back and take it?
There are many resources for you to learn what white privilege or any type of privilege that is out there. This scenario from “Waking up White” is the one thing that finally helped me understand what it really is. The author, Debby Irving, went into a grocery store where she encountered a person in a wheelchair in an aisle. The other customer could only reach the products that were at eye level, so her selection of items was very limited. Debby Irving realized that she was more privileged than this woman in the wheelchair because she could walk and see and purchase any item she wanted from anywhere in the store. It wasn’t something she did or didn’t do that gave her privilege. It was the mere fact that she was able to walk and live without a wheelchair that gave her an advantage over this other person. The fact that you are white already lessens your chance of walking through your neighborhood and being followed by police or lessens the chance that you will die in a routine traffic stop. Whether you agree or not, I hope you understand a little more what racism and privilege mean in today’s society. And if you aren’t outraged by the death of George Floyd, shame on you. There were many more before him, but i hope, with some real change and attention to the matter, there won’t be any after him. Tell me the last time you were mistaken for someone else as a white person and ended up dead on the street because you were illegally restrained and fought for your last breath as people stood by and did nothing. Don’t understand the riots? Maybe try to understand how a person who is supposed to serve and protect can murder a man in the middle of the day, with other officers standing by watching and doing nothing to prevent it. Maybe try to understand why it keeps happening over and over and over again. Maybe try to understand why so many black mothers feel so insecure about sending heir sons out of their home everyday. Maybe try to understand your own judgments against people of color.
IF you followed along and read my thoughts in their entirety, thank you. If you disagree, that is fine too, but please keep your negativity to yourself. If you don’t like the looting and rioting, do something to change the current climate. Write to your congress members, demand justice for George Floyd and all of his predecessors who were killed for no other reason than they were black. Demand that police wear and turn on body cameras at all times. Turn it off and you’re fired. Demand our laws change so that everyone is held accountable for the same things. Recognize your privilege.